PriorBlog

I feel really under the gun here because I am getting out of work early and I haven’t written anyhting on PriorBlog yet. Since I took yesterday off, it is imperative that something should get posted here, otherwise I might quit the thing all together, because that is the way I work. If something is negelcted for more than a few moments I can never go back to it, my interest in it is sealed for all eternity.

On the other hand, if I really bear down and force myself to concentrate on something, I can really get going and keep a good habit going for upwards of five or six hours.

This is a problem of mine that I plan on working on in the upcoming year. Other people might say something along the lines of “my new years resolution is to write another novel and run 1500 miles.” Those things sound great, but there is no way I’d be able to achieve them. I certainly fantasize about those things all the time, my fantasy self is fit and trim, and dedicated to producing piles of unpublishable manuscripts which only warrant flip websites making a joke of all the effort I put into them. But enough bitterness. When I was writing the book, even though towards the end I began to get the sense that nobody in their right mind would read, much less publish, such a pile of crap, it did give me some motivation to do something other than play Season Ticket Baseball (I have almost simmed into the 25th century and still nobody has broken Pete Rose’s record for most lifetime hits. You go Pete, you’re awesome.). Plus, when you mention to somebody that you’ve written a book (when in essence all you have is a giant .doc file on a suspect hard drive), people immediately fake being impressed, and some of them are actually pretty good at it, which is no surprise considering that roughly 10-15% people were in the drama club in high school. This impressed impression displayed by other people, however disingenuous, is especially believable after I’ve had a few beers.

And then, another fantasy I have is to be able to run a few miles a day. It would be nice to be a runner, because I always feel really great after I have gone for a 12 mile run, but these days I don’t know if I could even go 4.

So, my new (tentative) year’s resolution is to work on building up the discipline to be able to accomplish some real goals for myself. The plan is to get myself to the point where I can honestly and realistically make a goal for myself, in other words, I would like to get to a point, in a year’s time, where I can realistically make a new year’s resolution, because this year, it would just be a waste of time.